Stolen

“And from the ballroom floor we are in celebration, One good stretch before our hibernation, Our dreams assured and we all, will sleep well”
 

For the first time, after 3 years, i felt peace in my mind and heart. The fact that i now manage to restore my FAITH. I feel happy for what i have now. My work, My life, My Family, My Friends. I’m blessed. Lots of things happen in my life that made me somehow, bitter, yet still i manage to pick up those pieces and bring my old self back…

The struggles and heartache life gave me stole every inch of happines, hope and faith that i have as a person. And now… im bringing it all back.. not all at once.. bring it back one at a time…

bitch

” im a bitch, im a lover, im a child, im a mother, im a sinner, im a saint. i do not feel ashamed. Im your health, im your dream. I’m nothing in between…”

indeed a bitch, that me.

thats the darkest side of my personality. nevertheless, i neve regret it. life mold me to be this way, however, biggest part of these changes is my choice.

it doesnt make any sense does it?  maybe someday…. someday… i might open it up to you guys… someday…

nwei, this page is my personal spot.. i have lots of pages in this blog.. you can check it out if you want to know the other side of me… ^_^

 ciao~

suddenly…………….

tears fell off my eyes.

emptiness filled my heart

joy escapes my mind

im still not happy…

where can i find happiness..

or should i say, contentment…

hurry..

"i wrote a note to my future ghost, qouting words i’ve spoke and that i meant only half the time. now i spek between grinding teeth and my constant sleep, ’cause thats the pace i’ve got to go. so run along cause you’d best be on your way. dont worry, just hurry cause you have got a lot to lose here. but im catching up on that lost sleep. do i have a lot to lose"

been a awhile, nging bz kasi me s summer hehehe. been at alix bay resort last saturday. company outing. less gastos pero lots of fun. hmmm i dont usually go for company outing, its just that this will be my last na. kasi nagresign n me don. nwei, for the summer it was soooooo fun.. island hoping, swimming s pool, swimming s beach = negra ang beauty ko.. whahahaha

as for the blog world, eloi never fails to amaze me with her tags.. hehehe so i will try it out.. 

1. Mention the person who tagged you and create a link back to them.
2. Copy-paste the traits for all the twelve months.
3. Pick your month of birth.
4. Highlight the traits that apply to you.
5. Tag 12 people and let them know by visiting their blogs and leaving a comment for them.

Kaya ang sabi ko naman ay:

• JANUARY: Stubborn and hard-hearted. Ambitious and serious Loves to teach and be taught. Always looking at people’s flaws and weaknesses . Likes to criticize. Hardworking and productive. Smart, neat and organized. Sensitive and has deep thoughts. Knows how to make others happy. Quiet unless excited or tensed. Rather reserved. Highly attentive. Resistant to illnesses but prone to colds. Romantic but has difficulties expressing love. Loves children. Loyal. Has great social abilities yet easily jealous. Very stubborn and money cautious.

• FEBRUARY: Abstract thoughts. Loves reality and abstract. Intelligent and clever. Changing personality. Attractive. Sexy. Temperamental. Quiet, shy and humble. Honest and loyal. Determined to reach goals. Loves freedom. Rebellious when restricted. Loves aggressiveness. Too sensitive and easily hurt. Gets angry really easily but does not show it. Dislikes unnecessary things. Loves making friends but rarely shows it. Daring and stubborn. Ambitious. Realizes dreams and hopes. Sharp. Loves entertainment and leisure. Romantic on the inside not outside. Superstitious and ludicrous. Spendthrift. Tries to learn to show emotions.

• MARCH: Attractive personality, Sexy, Affectionate. Shy and reserved. Secretive. Naturally honest, generous and sympathetic. Loves peace and serenity. Sensitive to others. Loves to serve others. Easily angered. Trustworthy. Appreciative and returns kindness. Observant and assesses others.Revengeful. Loves to dream and fantasize. Loves traveling. Loves attention. Hasty decisions in choosing partners.Loves home decors. Musically talented. Loves special things. Moody.

• APRIL: Active and dynamic. Decisive and hasty but tends to regret. Attractive and affectionate to oneself. Strong mentality. Loves attention. Diplomatic. Consoling, friendly and solves people’s problems. Brave and fearless. Adventurous. Loving and caring. Suave and generous. Emotional. Aggressive. Hasty. Good memory. Moving. Motivates oneself and others. Sickness usually of the head and chest. Sexy in a way that only their lover can see.

• MAY: Stubborn and hard-hearted. Strong-willed and highly motivated. Sharp thoughts. Easily angered. Attracts others and loves attention. Deep feelings. Beautiful physically and mentally. Firm Standpoint. Needs no motivation. Easily consoled. Systematic (left brain). Loves to dream. Strong clairvoyance. Understanding. Sickness usually in the ear and neck. Good imagination. Good physical. Weak breathing. Loves literature and the arts. Loves traveling. Dislike being at home. Restless. Not having many children. Hardworking. High spirited. Spendthrift.

• JUNE: Thinks far with vision. Easily influenced by kindness. Polite and soft-spoken. Having ideas. Sensitive. Active mind. Hesitating, tends to delay. Choosy and always wants the best. Temperamental. Funny and humorous. Loves to joke. Good debating skills. Talkative. Daydreamer. Friendly. Knows how to make friends. Able to show character. Easily hurt. Prone to getting colds. Loves to dress up. Easily bored. Fussy. Seldom shows emotions. Takes time to recover when hurt. Brand conscious. Executive. Stubborn.

• JULY: Fun to be with. Secretive. Difficult to fathom and to be understood. Quiet unless excited or tensed. Takes pride in oneself. Has reputation. Easily consoled. Honest. Concerned about people’s feelings. Tactful. Friendly. Approachable. Emotional temperamental and unpredictable. Moody and easily hurt. Witty and sparkly. Not revengeful. Forgiving but never forgets. Dislikes nonsensical and unnecessary things. Guides others physically and mentally. Sensitive and forms impressions carefully. Caring and loving. Treats others equally. Strong sense of sympathy. Wary and sharp. Judges people through observations. Hardworking. No difficulties in studying. Loves to be alone. Always broods about the past and the old friends. Likes to be quiet. Homely person. Waits for friends. Never looks for friends. Not aggressive unless provoked. Prone to having stomach and dieting problems. Loves to be loved. Easily hurt but takes long to recover.

• AUGUST: Loves to joke. Attractive. Suave and caring. Brave and fearless. Firm and has leadership qualities. Knows how to console others. Too generous and egoistic. Takes high pride in oneself. Thirsty for praises. Extraordinary spirit. Easily angered. Angry when provoked. Easily jealous. Observant. Careful and cautious. Thinks quickly. Independent thoughts. Loves to lead and to be led. Loves to dream. Talented in the arts, music and defense. Sensitive but not petty. Poor resistance against illnesses. Learns to relax. Hasty and trusty. Romantic. Loving and caring. Loves to make friends.

• SEPTEMBER: Suave and compromising. Careful, cautious and organized. Likes to point out people’s mistakes. Likes to criticize. Stubborn. Quiet but able to talk well. Calm and cool. Kind and sympathetic. Concerned and detailed. Loyal but not always honest. Does work well. Very confident. Sensitive. Good memory. Clever and knowledgeable. Loves to look for information. Must control oneself when criticizing. Able to motivate oneself. Understanding. Fun to be around. Secretive. Loves leisure and traveling. Hardly shows emotions. Tends to bottle up feelings. Very choosy, especially in relationships. Systematic.

• OCTOBER: Loves to chat. Loves those who loves them. Loves to take things at the center. Inner and physical beauty. Lies but doesn’t pretend. Gets angry often. Treats friends importantly. Always making friends. Easily hurt but recovers easily. Daydreamer. Opinionated. Does not care of what others think. Emotional. Decisive. Strong clairvoyance. Loves to travel, the arts and literature. Touchy and easily jealous. Concerned. Loves outdoors. Just and fair. Spendthrift. Easily influenced. Easily loses confidence. Loves children.

• NOVEMBER: Has a lot of ideas. Difficult to fathom. Thinks forward. Unique and brilliant. Fine and strong clairvoyance. Can become good doctors. Dynamic in personality. Inquisitive. Knows how to dig secrets. Always thinking. Less talkative but amiable . Brave and generous. Patient. Stubborn and hard-hearted . If there is a will, there is a way. Determined . Never give up. Hardly becomes angry unless provoked. Loves to be alone. Thinks differently from others. Sharp-minded. Motivates oneself. Does not appreciate praises. High-spirited. Well-built and tough. Deep love and emotions. Romantic. Uncertain in relationships. Homely . Hardworking. High abilities. Trustworthy. Honest and keeps secrets. Not able to control emotions. Unpredictable. Extraordinary ideas. Sharp thinking.
  • DECEMBER: Loyal and generous. Sexy. Patriotic. Active in games and interactions. Impatient and hasty. Ambitious. Influential in organizations. Fun to be with. Loves to socialize. Loves praises. Loves attention. Loves to be loved. Honest and trustworthy. Not pretending. Short tempered. Changing personality. Not egotistic. Take high pride in oneself. Hates restrictions. Loves to joke. Good sense of humor. Logical.

  Kaya’t ang tatagtagin ko ay sila:

  …… sila

hehehe, tpos ntry ko din to from eloi.. ^.^

You Are Fun Sexy

You’re funny, quirky, cute, and sassy. Guys always have a great time with you, and that alone is sexy. You’ve got an upbeat, optimistic spirit that totally shines through. Any guy would be crazy to turn you down!

What Kind of Sexy Girl Are You?

heheheh… kkatuwa.. tpos… thats all.. ^.^  

sUmMeR TiMe

 "Summertime blows me away, and summertime i can’t stay. Its not sensible, but im desperate im a part of it. What i find takes me away, and what i find, i can’t stay. its ineveitable though i can’t let go i will never know"

its been almost a month and a half since i update my bloggie. Changes…. that i need to put my attention to. And yet, i never failed to enjoy my summah. Yah, we had this guild summer getaway last April 8, 2008 at Kinagot Resort Cavite. It is a private pool. The place is good but…. but…. we have a little misunderstanding with the management before we leave the place. Nevertheless, i had fun with my friends…

*photo taken by my SO.

Post dedicated to ELoi and to the rest of the blogmates who missed me. Hopefully my hiatus stage would be over.

far away

"This time, This place, Misused, Mistakes,Too long, Too late, Who was I to make you wait,Just one chance, Just one breath, Just in case there’s just one left,’Cause you know, you know, you know.."

less time to update my blog. thank you for those who still keep in touch, who never fails to visit and tag me. khit n inaamag n tong blog ko. Happy Valentines  day [belated that is], Belated Happy 9th yr anniv to us. hahahah tooooo long na… nde p din kmi nagsasawa.. wahehehehe… 

ill make visit visit muna to my friends.. kilala p kya nila ako!? hahaha.

ciao 

Only God Knows Why

"People don’t know bout the things I say and do, They don’t understand about the shit that I’ve been through, It’s been so long since I’ve been home, I’ve been gone, I’ve been gone far way too long"

I dont know if im really a bitch or what. Im just being myself. In friends, i accept them as they are, all im asking is for you to understand me most when i need you to. But if your tired its ok to let me go. After all, time will help me filter them. Just dont upbraid me of all my mistakes because i can take the best n worst part of you. And will fight with you till end. Thats for sure.

emo becky… ~

buses and trains

"So I walked under a bus, I got hit by a train, Keep falling in love, Which is kinda the same, I’ve sunk out at sea, Crashed my car, gone insane, And it felt so good, I want to do it again"

im afraid of changes. ironic kasi life itself is full of changes. the reason behind this insanity is simple, that two of the biggest worst scenario that happen in my life a couple of years ago that instantly change my life in a snap. from then on, im afraid that worst thing might happen next. and im a total loser in this case, coz i dnt know how to fight and im afraid to fight that i might end up getting hurt if i took the risk of fighting. and yet im still her, doing this blog, working my ass out. somehow, iv thought maybe im not afraid to fight, im just afraid to try.

 making sense? am i?! ~

why dont you and i

"So I'll say why don't you and I get together and take on the world
and be together forever , Heads we will and tails we'll try again, So I say why don't you and I hold each other and fly to the moon ,  and straight on to heaven ,  Cause without you they're never going to let me in"

bz me. kasi c momot professor n cya.. weee~  kya super less time n cya kin kasi cyempre lesson plan, study, lesson plan. tpos panggabi p ung class nya. till 5-9pm eh labas ko till 6pm lang. pero ok lang, magpapakabz nalang me s work ko. weh~ but ofcourse im so happy for him. ^^

clumsy

"You got me trippin oh, stumbling oh, flippin oh, fumbling oh, Clumsy cuz I'm fallin in love, in love, You got me slippin oh, tumbling oh, sinking oh, fumbling oh, Clumsy cuz I'm fallin in love, in love, So in love with you"

wenk~ 

tagal ko nan nwala.. ^^ HAPPY NEW YEAR guys!!!.. i failed to update my bloggy nagstart ung leave ko from work Dec 17 till Jan 2.. hahaha.. todo vacation ang lola. Im back and im soo inlove.. wenk~

bad day

"You had a bad day, You're taking one down, You sing a sad song just to turn it around
You say you don't know, You tell me don't lie, You work at a smile and you go for a ride
You had a bad day, The camera don't lie, You're coming back down and you really don't mind
You had a bad day. Sometimes the system goes on the blink, And the whole thing turns out wrong, You might not make it back and you know, That you could be well oh that strong
And I'm not wrong."

… to be continued…

your gaurdian angel

"When I see your smile, Tears run down my face I can't replace, And now that I'm stronger I've figured out, How this world turns cold and breaks through my soul, And I know I'll find deep inside me I can be the one.

I will never let you fall, I'll stand up with you forever, I'll be there for you through it all, Even if saving you sends me to heaven" by the red jumpsuit apparatus

no matter how hard life maybe. ill stay till end.

urban dub song

"Parked car, This night sky, Makes city lights shine like diamonds, Our song plays on the radio, We’re living it up, Make this night ours, We own the world, I wish this lasts forever, Alone with you tonight Further in you feels so right.

I’m giving it up and just a little more, This heartfelt leap I surrender, With arms raised tonight, Drive me away, ‘Cause the night just feels right, Take me away with you tonight, Anywhere with you"

Should be married at my age. But there some reasons y we still cant. But we really love to. Sa panahon kasi ngayon hirap ung basta basta ka magpapakasal. I love my daddy. ITs just like im not ready yet. 

1. still dnt have enough recipe to cook for him

2. still dnt have my own bed, incase we had a fight..

3. still dnt know how to wash clothes with my bare hands, incase of power failure

4. still too tired of waking up early.

5. still a brat

6. still childish

7. still immature - i am at my age.still am

but i love him. and im sure everything else will follow. i mean. i will be able to hurdle these things as long as i love him and willing to serve him as my happy hubby. 

another thing, this song - First of Summer - was one of my favorite. Aside from the fact na Hitsong to s mga videoke/inuman trip nmin ng gma friends ko. Last sat fly ang beauty nmin s bulacan, punta kmi don kasi almost 5 hours n kmi inantay eh.. kkhiya naman db? hahaha.. then inuman cla tpos kantahan. i dnt drink tsaka ayaw tlga me painumin. i think hanggang makatulog ako eto nikakatna nila, i mean most of the time but not always. cant blame them kasi mganda tlga ung song. hehehe.. ~ then kinabukasan deretso kmi s kbarkada nmin s marikina to celebrate momots birthday. Dun din kmi slip kasi un ang wish ng maybahay. nagtatampo nga kasi nde daw kmi nagoovernyt don. She is very accomodating. Lahat naman cla eh. i mean two of my friends n don nakatira s marikina. kya kung epal lang me dun nalang me slip lagi. Then deretso uwi kinabuksan s bahay then ligo then pasok then laba then nagsuka at nhilo. nde n me nagtaka. inosente lang ang nagtataka. ~

ciao!!

anything but ordinary pls?

"Sometimes I get so weird, I even freak myself out, I laugh myself to sleep, It's my lullaby, Sometimes I drive so fast, Just to feel the danger, I wanna scream, It makes me feel alive.

Is it enough to love?, Is it enough to breath?, Somebody rip my heart out, And leave me here to bleed. Is it enough to die?, Somebody save my life, I'd rather be anything but ordinary please"

 …..

happy birthday..!!

"happy birthday to you, you belong to the zoo, with the monkey and the donkey, and my dada is you..happy birthday!!!"

 its my boyplen's birthday.  he is younger than before [hope somebody believes this phrase waheheh~] nwei, i am more excited than he is… preparing all that should be needed.. but something came up last week so we end up having a date..  ^^ nwei, till now hes not yet ready, i dont know whats wid some guys, most of them not ecxcited of their birthday.. [ganon din b ung mga boyplen nyo~?]

nwei.. ill post some pics tom.. you can greet him over here momot

ill bring home some cake.. you can eat it up here..  ^^, i wanna share the blessings even thru blog..

bubbly

"I've been awake for a while now , you've got me feelin like a child now , cause every time i see your bubbly face , i get the tinglies in a silly place. It starts in my toes, makes me crinkle my nose, where ever it goes i always know, that you make me smile, please stay for a while now, just take your time where ever you go - bubbly by colbie caillat"

a happy day for me. Yesterday, My friends[2] and I spend our dinner at Pizza Hut Bistro. WE have lots of laughs and hot-on-the-grill chismax [its a gurl thing ata nde nwawala ang chismax]. Kwentuhan to the max kmi. And i realized, i never laughed this way for a long time!

When someone makes you smile, or laugh out of simple things, well that person is special. Kya eto ang soundtrip ko ngayon. Try to listen to it. Ganda ng tempo mapapasway ka. ^^  

I did share this song to one of my friends din, kasi bubbly ung boyplen nya.. and she have a cute nose. hahahaha.. connect?! anyway, she loves it.. Sabi ko nga imagine nya n cya ung kumkanta. khit mhirap gwin try nya lang.. ~ hahaha 

~just sharing a happy moment and a happy song. [nakdlwang post ako!! wah~ ]

meme ni becky..

from Misyel sulat-kamay tag ^^ hihi

1. Blogging - my day wont start without visiting my blog checking if somebody post a comment or say anything at my shoutbox. Then everyday, im visiting one blog. One lang kasi s sobrang dami ginagawa ko [dat includes my work and im finishing Dinner Dash Flo on the Go kasi]. Nwei, i love designing blogs, nafustrate lang me s wordpress hahaha nde ko madesign kasi nakkibahay lang me^^ at obvioius naman db? kasi nakailang bahay n ako haahah.. AT s blog n to nkgawa me ng subblog [sub kasi nsa ilalim ng main blog ko hahaha guloe] about animes naman pero wala pang post dun.. ^^

2. Designing - photoshop addict here!! pero nde naman me ganon kgaling hahaha.. Beginner lang me~ tpos nangongolekta me ng mga signature designs and header designs. Pag happy ako at feel ko ang environment ko then gumagawa me ng design.

3. Momot - boyplen ko.. [thing eh noh] kasi s ilalim ng boyplen ko may tree ng interests ko.. like animes, music, programming, guitar playing…. so cya nalang kasi i do this things with him. ^^  i am addicted s knya [hope he wont read this pra nde cya magkahydrocephalus - tma ba? wahahahah]

~*+*+*~

Another tag from Misyel [she loves me!! hihihi joke]

 What’s in a Name?!?

YOUR ROCK STAR NAME: (first pet & current car) - Chuchi Matchbox

YOUR GANGSTA NAME: (fave ice cream flavor, favorite cookie) - Chocolate Cream-O [nyahahaha]

YOUR “FLY Guy/Girl” NAME: (first initial of first name, first three letters of your last name) - M.Nim

YOUR DETECTIVE NAME: (favorite color, favorite animal) - Pink Dog [^^ same kmi ni misyel]

YOUR SOAP OPERA NAME: (middle name, city where you were born) - Benjamin Taguig [yaiks~]

YOUR STAR WARS NAME: (the first 3 letters of your last name, first 2 letters of your first) - Nimma [cute!]

SUPERHERO NAME (”The” + 2nd favorite color, favorite drink) - The Black IceTea [nyaks]

NASCAR NAME: (the first names of your grandfathers) - [ask ko muna s mom ko]

STRIPPER NAME: (the name of your favorite perfume/cologne/scent, favorite candy) - Polo Polo [hahahah badingerzie]

WITNESS PROTECTION NAME: (mother’s & father’s middle names) - Maglalang Gaspar

TV WEATHER ANCHOR NAME: (Your 5th grade teacher’s last name, a major city that starts with the same letter) - Beltran Brunswick

SPY NAME/BOND GIRL: (your favorite season/holiday, flowers) - Valentine Rose

CARTOON NAME: (favorite fruit, article of clothing you’re wearing right now + “ie” or “y”) - Mangosteen UK [wahahahah]

HIPPY NAME: (What you ate for breakfast, your favorite tree) - Gardenia Pine

YOUR ROCKSTAR ENTOURAGE NAME: (”The” + Your fave hobby/craft, fave weather element + “Tour”) - The Blogging Whirlwind Tour

YOUR PORN NAME: (First Pet + Name of street you grew up on) - Chuchi Ballecer[nya-ah~]

 Thanks misyel!!

tag ko si eloiskie!!! [hihihihi…. ^^ love you eloi!!] then si eloiski.. cya lang.. ^^

umbrella

"When the sun shines, we’ll shine together, Told you I'll be here forever, Said I'll always be a friend, Took an oath I'm stick it out till the end, Now that it's raining more than ever, Told you that we'll still love each other, You can stand under my umbrella, You can stand under my umbrella"

No matter what life brings, it feels so good when somebody stays at your side. Specially at times when you feel that the world is against you.

No matter how bitchy i am, no matter how stupid i may become in making my decisions, THEY, my friends stays. I am blessed to have them. Some of them 'kada ko since college, some nameet ko s online game, and some dito ko s office nakilala. You see, its not where you meet them or how strong the foundation maybe, it is how you accept each and every person that comes your way. Just be real, be true, accept them. Dont try to change them based s kung anong expectation mo as  a friend. They came to you, ask your advice, be true to give them advice. IF they dont follow you, FU#K! yet still it is their decision, accept it, it is THEIR LIFE. You've done your part, you've said your part. If same cycle comes, same thing you do. Nkakapagod on your part, but as a friend you should be there ALWAYS. If same thing happen to you, wouldn't you want somebody to run to? Somebody that will listen, no matter how emotional you are? You wouldn't want to do things against what you really feel right? You dont want regrets. Just be real. IF you want real friends, come out real. 

But some, we cant avoid this, really got tired of giving advices over n over again. But as a friend you shouldnt stop there. You shouldn't curse them 'coz they didn't follow your advice. Most kase gurls comes out emotionally, saying things out of anger, but in the end, it is not wat they really wanna say. [emotional person have this attitude, ganon din b kyo?] Its like "sinasabi mo lang yan kasi galit ka". But you can't control everybody. You may encounter person that will hate you for having such attitude. Hate you to the point that they will tend to say things that you never thought, even in your dreams, they would say. But the point of this is, be real , and you will have real person around you. You may not recognize them now, but when worst things comes to worst, they will be there saying "Move on, I'm just here i wont let you stop fighting"

My friends, almost all of them, know this is me. the emotional becky ^^ and im happy that Mr. Time filtered them wisely.

~any violent reactions are welcome. feel free to say anything against my post. after all, Tao lang me hahaha.. this is my opinion lang naman.  

lets eat!!

weeeee.. eat your hearts out guys.. i ordered this foods at max resto for all my visitors. no rice. diet tyo lahat!! hahaha.. may burger naman eh.. wahehehehe.. i love eating this stuffs at max resto. if i have enough money left, dyan me eat with my friend ching*, short for tabachingching. weh~ true.. hehehe cya ung tipo ng taong pag inaya mo eat nde aayaw basta itapat mo lang s sahod.. ^^ but that was a long time ago pa T_T kasi cyempre independent ang drama ng lola nyo kya ang money sobrang tipid.. T_T ganito pla un.. hirap mag adjust. nwei~ house warming to.. so fionixe!! sagot mo ang dessert ha?!! hahaha [sna totoo] wahahaha..

thanks s mga bumisita expecially to mot ^^ weeee *hugs*

to all my visitors, kain lang ^^ hahaha

 mwaaaahhhh till then guys.. enjoy the food!!! 

new world

after exploring i.ph, i came out with this gurly template. It took me almost, uhmmm~, 9 hours. whew~ fortunately, my boss is not around so i have the entire day personalizing my new home. guly ang drama, much as i wanted a dark template, it seems like limited lang ang available. im hoping for more templates ^^ sna mdami p cla include.

nakakasad nga lang kasi ung old [posts ko from wordpress and blogspot nde ko maimport here. T_T Nwei, this is the meaning of new world. start from scratch.. ^^  

so this is it.

 welcome to my i.ph bloggie!!